A path of Nothingness isn't nothing it is a path of self worth

So where do I begin? It's been two years since I posted anything on this blog. Where I have been? What happened too me? Questions and more questions. The fact is I got bored off everything. My faith, job and life in general. I just decided to do nothing! Though i still went to church and just did life. Though I have real no stories to tell as I didn't do nothing to create stories to tell. Sad really isn't it. Imagine what it would be like for me standing before God at his throne and him asking me, "What did you do for me?" 

I will probably have the most empty looking face in heaven as my answer would end up being...Nothing!

It's 2015 and I'm in a newish job. Been in since late 2014. My life has gone full circle once again. I'm in a bakery within a factory setting and I work nights. Church life is pretty much a two Sunday in a month routine with me. The rest of my life consists of working and sleeping. Then the rest is filled up with TV. Which is getting boring really. I try to live my christian life but failing is a concept that is actually a profession for me more so than my job. I have took into drinking beer on my days off which usually starts once I get up in the afternoons after a two to three kip. Though I tell people my drinking is small and that it doesn't take over. I know that to be a lie.

I released that I have been drinking too much when I took a weekend away with my brother and his friends to Kraków for my brothers stag. I was lying in the bathroom being sick when I had this thought flash into my head. "Where is my life going?"

You always hear folks say that those who drink too much say that they will never drink again but truth be told this was a different thought in its self. Mine was one of regret I'm failing God and myself and I have allowed jealousy and self pity to take hold. Jealousy of all those including my brother who are getting married are that are married and I feel lift behind then the self pity falls into that area. 

Blindness is what I call it more so as God has been blessing me with my own home to learn independence before he decides to allow a companion on my journey and also he has blessed me with a secure job. I do miss church but I technically am lazy as I can get to church on a Sunday evening if I pushed myself to get out of bed. Your probably wondering why your reading this but the truth of the matter is this. The thought of doing nothing, being lazy, jealousy and self pity is themes that we as Christians struggle with everyday. I'm blogging this as a form of truthfulness showing you that your not alone.

We always feel that we are doing Nothing but in fact we are doing Something! We are working on becoming something more for God so later on in our journeys with Christ we will have life lessons for those who we meet or own children who we will create. We will be able to say that we have been there and there is a way, a path of correction. If it is drink could mean taking less or taking none. Self pity could be away to mature in our faith as we are not alone knowing God is there. Being lazy means getting a kick in the butt to motative ourselves to go to church when we are tired after a long night in work. Jealousy of our loved ones and friends and wishing we had what they have. Though there isn't anything wrong with wanting a family but it might not be our time.

A path of Nothingness isn't nothing it is a path of self worth, maturity and it is knowing that God has more for us when we feel that life has become boring and bland. We all have a story and we all are on a Journey with a God, creator and divine mentor who who knows that nothingness is a lie. You are doing something. Growing!

7/01/13

Food for your soul.

I took a photo and I hope it comes up on this blog ok. I feel it is a good word from God given to Bob Gass to give to us to help me and hopefully help you with the struggles of the flesh.

Serenity

I love the little walks along the river side each morning with my dog. These walks have become more special to me as this was how God got closer to me. Once me and the partner broke up I started to take these walks through the trees and the gentle rollings of the river. I would always take the time to talk to God and draw closer to him while watching my dog chase the little grey squirrels around the trees.
For me this was a place of serenity. Now my times out with dog have been made more special because God tags along.

Craving the closeness of Father.

I love reading about how God walked in the garden with Adam before the corruption took over. It makes you think there is a time were man and God came together as friends and had conversations together and actually met face to face. There was even a time of pure bliss and happiness that knowing all was well in the world.
Even after the corruption in creation consumed us God was finding ways to meet us and have times of fellowship in an one on one, face to face style get togethers. With the first tent being built to house the ark and a place for God to seat and chat to the high priest and to be worshiped, man has been trying to find ways to have that relationship with their creator.
In 2 Samuel 7 vrs 4-6 God comes to Nathan with a word saying he wants a place to dwell and to live in as he has not had a place to live in in such a long time. He has been moving from place to place looking to settle his roots.

5 "Go and tell my servant David, 'Thus says the LORD: Would you build me a house to dwell in?
6 I have not lived in a house since the day I brought up the people of Israel from Egypt to this day, but I have been moving about in a tent for my dwelling.

God had enough of the tent and the constant moving about. It was time to find a permanent place to roost. So God makes a covenant with David that a place shall be built for him to rest. Though david will not get to build this place of dwelling for Yeshua the great man Solomon gets to have this great and mighty job.

See God craves like man to have fellowship with that which he created. He wants to be close. Like the way we want to be close to our kids or the ones we love.

If you skip to the story of new creation and Gods return to this little green and blue ball we call earth we see he comes back to his family and sets up an eternal resting place. We get to be close with him as Adam did.

Though us Christians crave it even more so as we were outcasts and we got adopted into Gods family. This adoption would not have happened until Jesus came into the picture and opened the door for us to join the family.
For me I crave it knowing that Adam and Eve were not our parents as so many creationists would have you believe. The story of creation and communion of God with the father and mother of the Jewish people is a interesting one. Also the fact that us the gentile people or the pagans were the outcasts of Eden and we were not worthy of being in Gods presence.
But Jesus changed that with his awesome work on the cross.

We all crave the idea of being close to original father.

Colossians 3 vrs 1-17 (A good blueprint for a Christian Couple seeking a Godly Relationship)

As i am now in a relationship with a beautiful and a caring girl. I believe that me and Leanne's relationship has to have Christ at the very center. Though at times that is very difficult and sometimes life can throw things at you when we least expect it. We have been going out only four months, but we both agree it seems longer, and we both mean that it a positive way.

Our minister has told us to be very open to each other and to talk about issues that arise in our journey together. We are also to pray about it and to bring our problems to the throne of God. There is times though i struggle with this issue, and i would forget to lay it at his feet.

We are both coming to terms with our pasts, even more so for Leanne. She is a wonderful person, she thinks more about other people and their needs than her own. God is at work in her life, and she is one person that keeps on saying God needs to be at the center of my life.

I have alot to do with life, and one of the things that i am trying to do is learning to trust her. I do trust her, but in past relationships with christian girls they mistreated that trust, our if you like we could use the word "abused" that trust.

I love Leanne and i always try to right by her and i also try to treat her in the way i want to be treated.

Colossians 3 vr 1-17 speaks yes to the church, but i also see it speaking to christian couples who are trying to build their relationship up on the foundation of Gods law for christian living.

Vrs 12-14 are a good blueprint for the christian couple who wanna be more Christ-like in their approach to become a loving and a caring couple. Who love and respect each other in everything they do and share. These verses are known as the fruits of the spirit and are the building blocks for us who are meant to be Kingdom workers for the building up for christs church through the power of the gospel.

But these verses are very powerful and meaningful for a christian couple like me and leanne. They have great value for the very survival of our relationship. If this is off God and we believe it is, then i hope and pray he will bless this relationship and God willing, i know folks this is early days to say this, but if it is in Gods awesome plan i hope and pray that i can marry leanne.

Please pray for us to seek Gods wisdom and his blessing in this journey together.

Peace and blessings

An 2011 update on my Journey

A wee update on my walk on this spiritual journey.


Well folks hope all is well with you all? Hope your all keeping strong in your faith?

For me my walk is going really well, my girlfriend Leanne has a great encourager to me, if it wasn't for her i would not have repented of sins that were conflicting with the way i was living and following God and his plans for our life's.

I can't believe that God has now blessed me with a girl who loves me for me and is also a follower of Jesus.

I have also moved to Leanne's church, and i am under the teaching of a really good teacher called billy, he is also very supportive to me and Leanne.

I will keep you all updated...and also i hope to put wee blog posts up here sometime on things that encourage me.

Peace and blessings

Refocus and a break from it all

So i have turned 26 this week.

I have also grown more grey around the sides of head, so i look like a fatter Mr Stretch from the fantastic four.

I love my life, though there is times i really hate living, but lets not depressing...what i mean by "hate" is this. Within my job i get tested each and everyday. I'm either tested by the attitudes of customers are I'm tested by promises broken by the trust of work mates.

Being a christian within the work place is a testing situation.

We also come to another testing place now. I always have problems with it to. Church!

I don't go much anymore.

Church now is being in a small coffee shop with a few select friends and we just chat about life, Christ and what ever else pops into the conversions.

Some day God permetting he will bring me across a communtiy of people interested in doing church in a coffee shop.

I also don't read the bible much anymore. I am trying to refocus my views. It is hard thing to do......

I will hit on this in the caffinated christians videos that will happen when i feel ready for them....

To be honest right now im look for a wife....lol yes you heard it hear....robert wants to settle down and then hopefully get back into church life sometime....i have become tired and weary of it all....so for the next year the blogs are going on hold...i will twitter my thoughts at @bertynesbitt

God bless and please pray that this of refocus and family life would happen.

Robert