The Healing process is long!!

Jas 1:5-8

(5) If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.

(6) But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.

(7) For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord;

(8) he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.


I remember reading these verses a couple of years ago when i wasnt doing so well in my christian walk.

I was playing about with the occult.

I was also addicted to porn.

I couldnt keep my head straight at all with work and with people.

I got angry with the smallest of things.

I remember sitting at the dinner table with my dad, i was crying pretty hard and i had so much emotions running through me.

My job was getting to me...my boss was a bully...not joking..he was a catholic and i was a protestant...and man i took some sh*t...i was young guy at 18 years, trying to learn a trade in the car body repair business...and well i hated it with a passion....i was on the verge of burning the garage down..and hitting the boss on the head with a hammer....it was in my hand and ready to be used...

There was alot of angry in me.....and alot of questions...why God? why the heck where you letting these things happen to me?

I really dont know why i was asking those questions...i wasnt angry with God...i was angry with the crap that was happening to me...

So after a while i lost my faith with alot of christianity and people....so i started to read alot about the occult...dak arts...witch craft...and the satanic bible....

this was the begin of a new chapter of my life....any one says demons dont attack..are talking crap....some of the stuff i seen and had happen to me was scary...

but i will talk about someother time....

lets say that was a intresting and dumb thing to do, but i grew out of it....

I later on got involved with porn...watched it and bought the mags...and it was the addiction that had the worst hold on my life...and it is still a battle today...

but these verses are the key to my healing......
Jas 1:5-8


(5) If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.

(6) But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.

(7) For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord;

(8) he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

i had to grow a set to actually come and ask God for help...but i had to have the faith to beleive that God would help me...sometimes the answer would be know....but i was asking for wisdom to beat this and to also help some else defeat it as well...

lets just say...he brought some great mentors into my life that has helped...and also my dad has been so understanding...even he has helped me.....

But please understand this....you need to be prepared to work hard to fix these problems...they dont go away over night...the healing process is long and hard....addictions can be scary to kick...but if your willing to work with God and follow every word he tells you to do....you then will get there....